There is something
You should know,
It's not something new,
Not something old,
It's just a small request -
Not too hard for you,
It's something going on
Between us some few,
Just tell me if you can
Or I'll make the choice myself,
No beating around the bush,
No lies, not by itself,
Shut me out
Or let me in,
Don't make me a charity,
Don't make lost in between.
Truth of fact is a lie.
Everything is a lie
And I am a fake.
A representation
Of what you wish to see,
A representation
Of what you can be,
A representation
Of what you now are.
A mere mirror reflecting -
A soul is caught inside.
It ensures you punish,
Punish it and yourself -
Because when you get up and go,
Then I will get up and go.
I won't be the one waiting
Or the one looking back,
I won't be any of that.
I'll just be a shattered mirror
And the lie of love -
For how can a reflection love
Anyone other than itself?
Curious :
How much I look at you
And never feel satisfied,
How every new thing I notice
Feels like a wonderful little find,
I know you,
You very well,
I see every mark,
Every spot as well,
Still never enough,
Even after a day with you,
What is this?
I think I'm in love with you.
Stranger, stranger,
Stay away.
Don't give me that look,
Don't talk to me that way.
Stranger, stranger,
I guess you have a name.
But I don't want to know
And won't give my same.
Stranger, stranger,
I don't have your taste.
Don't sit next to me,
Don't share my space.
Stranger, stranger,
Keep away.
Else let me get up
And walk far away.
I find peace here -
Quiet solace in hard breaths.
I find passion here -
Stirring out of its depths.
I find beauty here -
A red rose in a vase.
I find affection here -
A cake on a special Valentine's.
I find comfort here -
Strong arms holding me close.
I find warmth here -
Bodies sharing a blanket in the cold.
I find faith here -
That nothing is as bad as it seems.
I find trust here -
That no matter what he's there for me.
Finally and firstly, this is what I found -
Love in his sleepy eyes
That seem to wake up for me,
Love in his warm hands
As they caress me,
Love in his expressions
For they say it all,
And love on his lips
With soft words and kisses that's ours.
I think you love me.
No, I know you do.
I know from all
Those small things you do.
I think I love you.
No, I know I do.
But I'm so scared
Of what'd happen if it falls through.
You are in love with me.
I see it clear in your eyes.
I feel it against my skin
And in our shared breaths.
I'm in love with you
And we are going so slow and fast.
I so love being in your arms.
I just want it to last.
If I lose my smile
And let the darkness show,
Will you love me less
Than you do now?
If my eyes clear
And the expressions creep in,
Will it make a difference
Or will you let it go?
If you find my cold voice
And cold heart chilling bones,
Will you warm me
Or let it be?
Will you let the dark angel,
Cold, analytical and brooding,
Live so with broken wings?
Or will you let her fly away
As she has done before?
Will you fly with her
With the hell in your heart
So her demons may find peace?
And let your hell warm up to a cinder,
And burn, and burn,
Freeze over and die,
And free yourselves from that ride.
It feels easier to smile
Than to show what's inside.
Tears, tears and more tears,
Anger, indescribable fury,
Coldness, the lack of a heart,
Confusion, only thoughts and no feelings.
Smiles through it all,
She stands in her mind alone.
The vast maze where she loses self,
Which is everything and nothing,
Which is ruined beyond repair,
Where there is darkness and escape.
But escape is another trap, she smiles,
Her thoughts carrying her further and further.
After everything she does,
Her eyes are still cold,
Her lips pull back to a smile,
Everything pleases yet hurts.
Nothing is wrong, she smiles,
Everything will be fine.
Is it really going to be
When you are only thoughts, lady?
There are people, a person,
Waiting for you, just waiting.
Let him wait, she says and another smile,
He will go when he sees he deserves better.
Why so cold lady?
Have you no heart?
There is love and calculation
But maths never gave birth to love.
I know yet so I am and so I will be,
I smile knowing all and nothing.
All I do no matter what - happy, sad or angry -
Is smile, just simply smile to hide.
Together in grief- You and I
Huddled against the storm without an umbrella
Letting tears fall, unknown to anyone
Sharing the warmth of a smile and a hope...
Together in trouble - You and I
Holding hands and walking against the storm,
Giving each other the strength to carry on.
We'll face it.
: by Ashima Jose and Vandana Sreekumar
I saw the beauty -
In their hands, the way they work,
In their eyes, the way they think,
In their hearts, the way they feel.
I saw the light -
In their hands, healing with their touch,
In their eyes, glimmering hope,
In their hearts, the one giving inner glow.
Now I behold them again after years,
I thank the stars that fate treated them well,
The young, awkward teenagers I once knew
Are now strong, beautiful ladies with the kiss of youth.
I watch them with pride,
I watch them with love,
I watch knowing I'd give anything for them,
My two most beloved friends.
And I thank my lucky stars,
For sending me these angels -
Angels who stand by me everyday,
Who loves me just the same.
One step made the difference.
You fell and we weren't there.
A thousand notes and letters,
Hugs and kisses, we'll give anything
For this madness to go away.
Anything to turn back time
And go to that day
When you were with us
And you were ok.
You were ok.
So easily in love,
So easily carried away,
So soft like a dove
And so easily led astray -
His eyes, are brown
And flecked with black
Lines and golden dust,
Are where you never lack.
His face, is scarred
With lines of many battles
And tempers gone wrong,
Is where you seek solace.
His arms, are tough
And strong and warm
And always protective,
Circle and hold you near.
His shoulders, are muscular,
Toned and also warm
And stay steady and firm,
Are where your hands and head rest.
So easily in love -
Few soft words in a rough voice,
A scratched voice recovering
From the harsh love of cigarettes.
So easily carried away -
A damsel in distress and
You found your dark knight even if
He isn't exactly what you imagined.
So soft like a dove -
Your heart that melts
At every touch, every gesture,
And every expression of love.
And so easily led astray -
Convinced into compliance and now
What will be left for you?
You don't know.
(Bitter experience left with heartache,
Strong values believing love for fools,
Patience and understanding that is kind,
Or being in love and out of your mind.)
I dream -
Of finding content in a blue sky,
Of dancing when the clouds cry,
Of climbing so many hills,
Of finding love's thrill.
I wait -
For seeing a colour I have never seen,
For smelling the wet soil damp against my skin,
For feeling the hard rock of mountains high,
For knowing there is one I will always stand by.
Yet I know -
My eyes will never see,
My nose will never smell,
My skin will never feel,
And my heart will never know.
Because -
This is the room
I have come to dread,
And this is the bed
Which is welcoming my end.
Words to capture
The countenance of a million souls.
Her soul bled black ink
Which spilled all over the globe.
Her eyes never left the darkness
And darkness never left her soul.
It pulled her like flames pull moths.
Brightly coloured but flying in the night,
Hidden to all but the knowing eyes.
The eyes which wait glimmering,
Like the black jade shining in her heart.
The coldness which few feel.
The rest are left warm.
Is it tragedy that strikes
Or what keeps tragedy at bay?
Love is blind,
Deaf and dumb too, I say.
Heightened senses when with one,
Disaster seems as bearable as day,
With bright sunshine or stormy rain -
In love, we play, we just play.
Lover, you don't understand.
See my eyes, see what they tell -
Feel my hands, feel the pulses underneath -
Lover, why do you not know?
And somehow, even after it all
I am waiting for you.
For you to understand the colours in my eyes,
The language of love that my eyes belie.