Embers

He walks in, closes the door.
She is lost in a world of her own.
He potters around, his day is done,
Mind at rest, this is where he calls home.
She is looking through chaos,
Desperate to establish order,
She sees a light flip on in the corner.
He sees her at her laptop,
Typing away, letters, e-mails,
It's all work, business for today.
Her attention is on the light.
His eyes find her in the dark,
Dimly outlined in the backlight of her screen.
Her attention is on the bulb,
Her eyes strain and find the filaments.
He stands facing her, his smile hidden.
To her, his face looks indifferent in the half light.
His face is half shadowed, he moves to her.
Her eyes glow like the particles
Moving inside like fireflies
Her mind sees fire inside the bulb
Ember falling slowly all around her
Her vision changes, the laptop melts away
Her couch is semi suspended in a semi space
There is a floor she can see and cannot
She is distanced from reality
There is a dark form, a spectre with an outline of yellow
Moving slowly towards her, its words
Its words are garbled like a foreign language
She ought to know, used to know,
She just does not know
It is moving closer
She inches away
It reaches for her
No
No
No
Bright white light illuminates her dark space,
Dissipates her ghosts, the filaments are not on fire.
He stands in front of her.
He leans down.
He lays a kiss on her head then sits down.
She just blinks twice and turns back to her screen.
She blinks once, she smiles.
Rests back against the couch.
The moment's past, her light was next to her.
Though the corner of eye still sees the embers.

Madness

In my madness, I sometimes mistake pain for pleasure
And the blood rushing up to colour my skin
As the velvet shades of a dark love
I simply cannot deny.

Hollow

It's hard keeping on feeling numb
Aching with a hollow space in my chest
It used to be where my heart is, but I'm not,
I'm not and I want to know there is
Someone I can give a little piece of me to
While I'm breaking all other parts of the was
And making an is, just to feel safe.

Ashes and wine

We've been ashes and wine all our lives,
Baby, we had no chance, you and I,
This was an off track road, another sign
Followed and gone wrong, we had no chance,
It's all just ashes and wine;

I'm waking up to your face wondering what's next,
Is there any chance I can ever forget?
You are waiting and waiting when I just want to leave,
Baby, this had no chance, there's no life here,
Not for you and me;

It's just another day, I need to drag myself out of bed,
You're still there, somewhere, in the back of my head,
I open another bottle, drown sorrows I do not know,
5 bottles later, I find you've come home,
A bottle opener later, you find me bleeding, alone.

Stubs strewn across the floor, the ashes all over me
I'm still craving more, another bottle won't hurt me,
Why don't you just stay away, there is no chance,
Baby, at the end of the day,
We're all just ashes and wine.

Speed

A shot of whiskey free flowing -
So much that you get bored,
That you don't feel the need to put in effort
Then you wonder why I left other men before.

A quick light in a fast night
Too fast that you feel the need to be alone,
That you don't feel the need to share a bed
Because vulnerability was never a part of life before.

Another shot, another light, our hands touch,
Fingers collide with skin,
Yours undo my bra clasp, getting further with every touch -
Boy, a woman's body is never yours,
Till you've truly touched her soul.

You can be either my hearth or a hotel room,
You do not learn the vagaries of my mind with distance,
You do not learn a person in space and in this space,
But if I might lose by being near, I'd rather be far.

I've tasted cities different from yours,
I'm sure, so have you, from mine,
Our ideas of love are so different,
Even when our bodies intertwine.