Addict

Je traverse toutes les limites,
Chaque mot résonne comme l'angélus,
Le temps devient mon ennemi,
Les cauchemars se multiplient -
Et je me trouve addict.

Je me trouve addict,
Je me trouve ivre,
Je me trouve sur les fumées,
Je me trouve dans le rouge -
Je me trouve sur toi.

Toi, tu es mort mille fois
Par ma main, ma plume,
Chaque mot je jette à ta tête
Tu les pousse, tu les confonds -
Tu me confonds.

Et moi, je dépasse encore toutes les limites,
Je n'ai pas encore de mots et de temps
Cette dernière fois où on doit se dire au revoir,
Non, adieu, mais je suis encore addict,
Ton addict.

Vide

​I want to write what I feel -

But my blood has dried

And this body remains dead,

Naked on the ground that gave it birth.

I want to write what I feel -

But the feather is gone, the pot has dried

And my fingers are stained red,

Yet the page remains deliciously empty.

To my Master

To my master.

And I wonder what is it in you that makes me wait
For years and years till time abates -
For all this time when you called me mine
And I've never been anyone other than thine -
For being mine, myself, I'm pushing you to the edge
And so forgive me master, I'm becoming your death -
And the Grim Reaper has no words to say
For he is my assistant now in every way -
For all the years that I lived for you,
I am now claiming for me, a few,
I am now claiming for me, my life true.

Lost and Found

​I'm no longer the person I used to be,
The story we dreaded came to be,
The person you were, I used to know,
Echos of sadness sound in these halls -

There is no more of reckless abandon,
The endless messages on phone,
The love letters on white lined papers
Kept safe, untouched since our loss,

I wish you'd recognise this person again,
Just as I hope to realise our love again,
This house feels so empty, we're two strangers now,
Marriage doesn't seem all so rosy now.

There's a child in the crib crying for love,
Our vacant eyes just stare at each other untouched,
I reach for the child, the cries fades away,
Maybe we gained more in our decision to stay this way?

The child in my arms reach for you as well,
It knows nothing of the cold war between two beds,
It was conceived by love and born to hate
Which indifference has replaced of late.

The child is with you now, she has your eyes,
My thick hair, fair skin and childish smile,
Easy laughter, she got from you
Are we going to break her too?

The greyness of my skin, the chalky touch of your hands,
Our last few days? We need to make plans,
Our pain seeping through the sheets,
We hold hands...

More promises made, a few tears shed,
We're no longer the teenagers who wrestled in bed,
Two adults, workers, spouses, parents
Labels on labels that don't make sense

We're no longer those whom we used to be,
We have to create a new story for three,
A better story, less of a war,
Where we're close and not this far...

There is a light now in your brown eyes,
The golden streaks now seem to shine,
Your touch is gentle, it doesn't hurt anymore,
Everything seems different from before.

Our child between us, safe and sound
Our love renewed, lost then found.

Finite

Where are you now?
It's like a starry night,
You fade away by the morning,
Why didn't you stay?
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
I see warzones and paint,
Our children walking to school,
Proud of a father they've never seen,
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Were you just another dream?
I'm trying so hard to be lucid,
To make memories come alive,
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
My light is fading, I can't wait,
My life is fading and I can't wait,
I can't wait anymore
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Remember our last days, just you and me?
All those days under amber flame trees
Looking up at stars thinking we're free -
Wherever you are,
I'm following you now.