Why do I write about you?

Why do I write about you?
Because I want you to exist as I see you :
Beautiful, broken, sharp edged, honest, clear -
That is my selfishness.

Why do I write about you?
Because I want you to live in my world :
Quiet, grey, sharp, bright, confused -
This is my curiosity.

Why do I write about you?
To kill you so that you will cease haunting my dreams -
Because I'm sleepless,
Lonely,
              Forbidden,
                                    Locked,
A book with blank pages,
               A grey blackboard,
                                     A broken pen spilling ink.

Because,
I'm bleeding at the sight of you
And killing you in pages
Seems to be
The only way I can hide.

Lost In A Book

"Happiness is getting lost in a good book"

I became a stranger in a new land... Fell in love with a strange man... Found that love could grow in truth... Because heart was what counted not language or group...
And we married against the odds... Had a life to be envied... He gave me the light of our lives, Nur al-Hayah... With her I found a mother in me...
I found how much closer a husband and wife can be... I saw that age mattered nothing... That time would stop still... Before this love across borders, worlds and years....

Book: The Map of Love
Author: Ahdaf Soueif