Tuesday, 8 September 2020

Untitled #30 - possibility

I look down on my body and I see
A world of possibilities,
It's flat, sometimes, and hard
And I enjoy what I feel
That stereotypical power associated
To being *hard*
But sometimes it's soft, curvy,
Womanly.
Yet being a woman seems to have put a fullstop in front of me.

I look down on my body and I see
Breasts, soft and fleshy, belly,
Thighs, squishy and sweaty, sex.
I look down and I imagine
Flat chest, the way it used to be
Hard abdomen, the way it used to be
Thighs, squishy and sweaty,  sex.

I look down on my body and I see
A world of possibilities
It's flat sometimes and hard
And I enjoy what I feel
Between my legs, hard meeting soft,
I am soft yet my body is hard,
Me desiring more than a full stop,
An infinite world of possibilities ~

Sunday, 3 May 2020

Untitled #29 - memories

It can never be anything else
Only I can dream of my baby
The one I saw in my dreams
Always broken, half formed
A tiny demon calling out to me...
It can never be anything else
For me it's not the heat
I want to blame our sessions of love
To say that we made a mistake
The one that I want;
It's not heat behind my thowing up
My queasy stomach and upset mind
The missed period and a new bra size
...Tiny broken form calling out to me
If only I could see you
My little black spot, again on a USG.